TechnoChitlins

Pain

Kim du Toit has a post on Rush's addiction to painkillers- bq. Quite frankly, you lose all sense of reason, all sense of perspective, and you have no vsion of anything outside your own tiny, excruciating universe. bq. I am one of the strongest-minded people I know. But I suffered from chronic gout once, for four months, and let me tell you, I ended up popping Vicodin like M&Ms -- even though I knew that codeine screws up your bowels, causes deafness, and can be habit-forming, to name but three charming little side-effects. bq. I would have done anything, anything to alleviate the pain just by a third, let alone banish it altogether. bq. Constant, unending pain means you don't sleep -- I may have had three hours sleep a week, total, at one point. That pain means you can't think -- I couldn't read, or watch TV, or carry a conversation. bq. I for damn sure couldn't move. A trip to the bathroom meant twenty minutes of horrifying agony, where I sobbed like a baby and screamed at the slightest touch of anything on my foot. Stairs -- forget about it. I stayed upstairs in my bedroom for a full month, grunting and moaning in pain. My clothes were soiled (I couldn't bear to move to change them), my body was filthy -- shower? bath? you must be kidding. bq. If someone had offered me Rush's painkillers, I would have gobbled them up without a second thought. Had that happened, I have no doubt whatsoever that I would have become addicted. bq. And you know what? I wouldn't have given a rat's ass, as long as the pain disappeared for just a few hours. I have my own experiences with long-lasting intense pain and can vouch for the temptation of pain pills. Unfortunately, with me my choice of pain medicine was alcohol, and I left myself with a lifelong habit that I know isn't good for me but I still don't care to do anything about. Not making excuses for me OR for Rush, I just know how it is. My heart's out to you Maha Rushie. Posted by maestro at October 11, 2003 04:58 PM | TrackBack